She looks like me,like me not

The moment anyone sees my baby , the very first thing that crosses their mind is remblance and the next curious question is popped at you ,who does she look like ?

you will not believe this started, the instant Amu (my baby girl) was born inside the operation theatre.

Though heavily drugged i could vaguely hear my gyneac talking to another gyneac [who by the way scolded me in btw e operation for not eating properly] that she resembles her mom [ this was even before they showed her to me heights !! ].

So literally a war [ not a cold one believe me ] began among the paternal and maternal side . The former [being partial to the father ] wanted the baby to have their looks [upto looks are fine,hope it doesnt extend to characteristics as wel ;-)] and you can guess by now what the latter wanted.
But the truth was that she resembled her dad more since her birth and when ever the same judgment came from visitors ,we could see the proud papa [ with his chest broadened ,thinking after all she is my daughter ] with a broad smile ofcourse feeling pity for me that she doesnot resemble me.
Does it really matter whom she resembles ?
Personally for me that was not affecting at all [ 'cos i had other things to ponder at ]

you know i  have always been this very pampered and derived most attention from my parents for one i was the youngest and other mostly 'cos i was weak [which they considered as i was a poor eater and was prone to illness all the time]and sometimes i would not miss a chance to utilise this in my favour to the fullest .

When i see Amu( my baby girl) now getting undivided attention from everyone even from strangers sometimes, it makes me wonder what power a little girl must be having to pull people to herself  without her knowledge.

The other day when i was trying to put Amu to sleep even after many tries she wasnt giving in , though she was very sleepy and tired and i noticed that the moment SP returned from work and picked her ,she sprang to him with joy and was all set to start playing with him [These kids nowadays,they are all packed with energy, i wonder how our parents managed multiple kids -Kudos to them!!!]


After her birth, the moment she set her eyes on SP ,Amu has been very fond of him, i dont know if its 'cos the conversations she used to have everyday with him when she was still in my tummy and it got continued even after birth keeps me wondering.

Though i consider that everything goes smooth when SP is around her , i sometimes envy the bond that they share [thinking ...though she was corded in me for 9 whole months]

After this ,just a mere thought crossed my mind to write a letter to Amu [dated now but to be read by her in future]

Dear Amu,

This is my first letter to you when u are just 5 months old,you can always read it ofcourse when you will be eligible to identify the letters in them.
The moment you came into our world i have gained more than what i have lost .No baby i am not talking about my weight here.
Its been just wonderful to have you in our lives.
I feel very sorry that i cant spend more time with you as my most desire was to be independant financially [Though i want to be independant in all the ways].
I do really miss those first few months when i was a full time mom to you.

Due to this you seem to prefer others more than me[ since i make you lie down all the time hence i must be the most laziest mom according to you] mostly the people who take you out and who play all kind of games with you[even though they will look the silliest and stupid games that they could have ever come up with ].
Since i am not around you all the time i want you to know that i really love you the most even more than i love daddy [I hope its not Vice versa here ].

I know that you love being with daddy more than me for your own rightful reasons, i can understand but honeybun i want you to remember it was me who wanted a baby girl and your daddy wanted a boy and  he was so sure and confident of having a boy that he had already made 20 years game plan with you [ what a hearty laugh i had had when i heard its a girl ].

On a lighter note-Though i always want and wish that you cling to him more always for my own selfish reasons , i want you to remember you are a part of me and when you really need me , i am always there [whether its 2 AM in the morning or midnight ]and also i know when you will reach your teens you will have to come to me only for approval of your late night parties [otherwise your dad will have to keep a big everest size stone on his heart to give you perm and i cant even picture the scene when you will start dating for which he mite have a heart attack]

I am really happy to have you in my world 'cos i am going have a lot of fun with you [Just hoping that someone's heart doesn't go bleak].

Your ever loving,
Mamma,mommy,amma or the conventional maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... [what ever that you mite call me one day]


p.s :- According to My personailzed survey : My daughter has resemblance towards her paternal side than maternal.